Getting ready for the holidays

Sunday Munchkin and I went to see Ballet Renee's Texas Nutcracker. It was so cute. It was great seeing munchkin's eyes light up watching the pretty ballerina's dance across the stage. She kept asking, "Kristen, can we go see the ballerina's backstage?" And of course I would tell her we would afterwards. We even got a couple of pictures with her and a ballerina. She was so adorable. Red was completely sick with a stomach bug, so I took her. I don't think I stopped for more than an hour on Sunday. It was crazy. Poor Red, she couldn't keep anything down and she was in bed just looking so pitiful. I hate getting a stomach bug. If it is one thing that I am a complete wimp and will act like a baby about, it is my stomach. I can pretty much handle a lot of other things, but not when it comes to my stomach. But we had fun at the ballet and it just kicked munchkin's drive to be a ballerina into overdrive. *giggle* She will definitely be a cute little ballerina. But watching that ballet reminded me of when I was in the Nutcracker in California when I was younger.
I was a little mouse and it was so adorable. My dad was the Nutcracker and he was amazing! We had tons of fun. Oh what I wouldn't give to have been able to stay in Ballet.
I guess you could say things are going well right now. I am just anxiously and eagerly awaiting next Thursday so I can drive East to see my family and Zac. I can't wait. So of course, this week, and I bet next week are going to go at a snails pace. That sucks!
Today, I am going to lunch with some girlfriends of mine from McLane Company. They are such a great group of women, and I am so blessed to have them as friends. Two of them are my bridesmaids. They were so excited when I asked them to be in my bridal party. They almost cried and said they were honored to be in the wedding with me. They even love the dress that is picked out for them. Both Chris and Misty said they were glad that I had picked out a dress that they could wear again. That makes me so happy because that is one of the things that was important to me. I don't want my friends to wear something that they can't wear again. That is why I didn't choose some AWFUL looking dress, like seafoam. That would be cruel. But I want them to be beautiful on my wedding day as well, not just me, ya know? It makes me very happy that they are excited about being in the wedding. Kim is a little sad because she can't be down here to help me with wedding plans, since she is my Maid of Honor and all. But I understand she has priorities as well. Things are really going to be executed until after the holidays anyways. But thankfully, I get to get out of Texas for a while and be around the ones that I can act silly with and understand me fully, and play Phase 10 with while reciting movie lines from stupid movies like, Tommy Boy and Shrek. *giggle* I love my weird family!

Bridal Fitting

Do you know how you are at a dress shop or a clothing store, you find an outfit that you are sure fits, you grab it and go to the dressing room to try it on; you start putting it on, and it WON'T fit?!!!?! Well, that is exactly what happened to me last night. I had my bridal fitting last night. I kept thinking all day, ok, finally things are starting to take off, I can get this in, get the bustle and then get it back in March and I will be ok. WRONG!!! I got there, got my bra and slip on, put the dress on and it wouldn't fit. So, I fling the bra off (nice visual, ha?) and it zipped up fine. Well, I get to the back where alterations are, and one of the seemstresses starts noticing that wire on the bottom of the dress was coming out and then I noticed a HUGE tear in my dress! I started crying right there and then. This is my wedding dress! She was so embaressed because the dresses weren't supposed to be sold like that. So they decided to get me the same size and in the same dress, they start to put it on me, and the zipper doesn't go up at all! And there were two seemstresses trying to get me into this thing. That zipper wouldn't budge. It was my ribcage that wouldn't let the zipper move. I have a barrel ribcage so it made it impossible for me to fit into that dress. I told them, I'll have to thank my ancestors the next time I see them. *grunt* They just couldn't understand how I could fit into my dress PERFECTLY and not be able to fit into one the same size. Well, to make matters worse, it turns out, the wrong size was sewn in my dress. So, I had to get a bigger size. Now the size thing I'm not concerned about, what matters is that it fit into a dress that looks good. What concerned me, is that this was another speed bump. Every inch of the way, there has been a speed bump that satan has put in my way to keep me from getting married or to change my mind. But God always came back and blessed me and Zac 10 times over. He made this situation all better. They decided that they are going to order me a bigger size, that will be in the store in January, and that they will make it a rush order/priority to be ready for me to pick up in March on the original date that was already set for me to pick up my other dress! I mean, how wonderful is that! God you are so awesome! Even in the midst of darkness, he ALWAYS turns on the light so that way I don't run into something. *giggle* But I called my mom last night and I just cried my eyes out. I felt so embaressed. My mom felt so bad because she couldn't be here to help and to comfort me. Oh well. But things are better now. It is a new day and His blessings are new every morning.

Ba Humbug!

Everyone is putting up their Christmas trees and lights, wreaths and National Lampoons Christmas decorations in the front yard for all to see. Seeing all of this festive holiday cheer automatically reminded me of a song I used to hear when I was younger called "The Twelve Pains of Christmas" , and luckily I found it online on YouTube.

Well, just recently my sister was on Good Morning Arkansas promoting her new CD and will be having her concert this coming weekend. I can't believe my sister is getting famous! LOL, she told me she just finished mastering her CD this week and that her CD covers are all done. I am so excited for her. Hopefully she will get a record deal and get out of that hell hole where she lives away from all the people that are sucking her down in her life. She is an incredible woman and she has nothing but people or should I call them "crabs" that want to bring her down into their world. I got out of there as soon as I could and it was the best decision I ever made. If I had stayed I would probably would have been dead or killed myself. YUCK! Anyways, she is so excited about her exciting debut. Way to go baby sis'!

Wedding plans are going ok, it is kind of in a rut at the moment, mainly because I am trying to refrain from buying anything for the wedding. EEEKKK, do you know how bad that feels to a shopaholic? Since I have reached my limit on my credit card, I can't spend anymore money. I am so pissed off and angry at myself for doing that. My fiance is helping me out by paying for some of the wedding stuff I have already purchased. eeekkk! I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself. There, now that I have that out into the open. I actually would prefer to bash my head into a brick wall a couple of times and call it a day. But no. I can't, unfortunately. I have been such a sour and bitter person the past 2 days and I have no idea where it came from. I kind of want to scream at a certain STUPID person for being so damn...well you get the hint. And I am ready for the wedding to get here already. I think mainly why I am so dang sour is because of the money thing. I am just so angry at myself. As they say, we are our own worst critic. I am just so thankful that I am marrying a man that is extremely smart with money and learns from others mistakes instead of having to learn himself, especially when it deals with money. I even told him not to give me or trust me with a credit card with we get married. I am extremely irresponsible with it and I don't want the guilt of being an irresponsible steward on my conscience.
Anyways, so I am sitting here listening to Christmas music, not in the Christmas spirit, watching the clock and eagerly anticipating 5pm to get here so that I can bolt out of the doors and head home. I'm tired of sitting here wincing everytime my name is called. Sorry folks, in an extremely sour mood, so hopefully it will be better tomorrow. Hopefully!