ZAC IS COMING HOME!!!!! OH MY GOSH I CAN'T CONTAIN MYSELF!!!! My fiance will be in Texas on either Friday or Saturday and I am so excited! We have been separated for almost a year now, meaning each of us lived in a different state, and now my baby is moving back home! YEAH!! Maybe I should embaress him at the airport with a big sign saying, "WELCOME HOME ZAC! I LOVE YOU!!" Lol, somehow I don't think that would fly over very well with him. *giggle* oh well. I am extremely nervous and anxious that my stomach is acting up. Zac thinks I am so crazy for being nervous. Well, he isn't a girl. Girls are always nervous, especially since I don't get to see my fiance very much, and it has been 2 months since I have seen him. EEKKK!!! There are so many things I want to do when I see him, but things are just going to have to take time. Dang it, I am so impatient. Definitely something I need to work on.

I got this email from my soon to be Mother-in-law, and I thought it was so funny. Definitely didn't expect something like this from her:

1. Men are like Laxatives ..... They irritate the crap out of you.
2. Men are like Bananas ....... The older they get, the less firm they are.
3. Men are like Weather.... Nothing can be done to change them.
4. Men are like Blenders.... You need One, but you're not quite sure why.
5. Men are like Chocolate Bars .... Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips.
6. Men are like Commercials ....... You can't believe a word they say.
7. Men are like Department Stores ..... Their clothes are always ½ off.
8. Men are like Government Bonds .... They take soooooooo long to mature.
9. Men are like Mascara ... They usually run at the first sign of emotion.
10. Men are like Popcorn ..... They satisfy you, but only for a little while.
11. Men are like Snowstorms .... You never know when they're coming, how many inches you'll get or how long it will last.
12. Men are like Lava Lamps .... Fun to look at, but not very bright.
13. Men are like Parking Spots .... All the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped.

Now isn't that the funniest thing ever?

Well it is short and sweet today, really tired and don't feel well. I haven't been sleeping very well because I have been over stressed, anxious and my allergies/sinuses have been going haywire. What I need to do is go home, take a benedryl as soon as I get home and knock myself out. Now that sounds like a great idea. I have a long drive ahead of me tomorrow and then it will be relax time with my sister. Thank goodness for 3 day weekends. Happy Friday everyone!

Happy Valentines Day?

What is the big deal about Valentines day? You get chocolate, you eat it, you get fat. You get flowers, they look beautiful for a couple of days, and then they die. You get stuffed animals, you think they are cute for a couple of days, then they end up in a drawer or under the bed, never to be seen again. You get lingerie, you wear it once, and then it gets put into a drawer. What is the point of celebrating ONE day?!?! Zac and I had talked about this quite a bit when we were dating. Celebrating our love for one day is ridiculus, celebrating our love everyday is what you are supposed to do. It doesn't matter if there is a holiday that is all about love, Zac and I celebrate our love for each other everyday of the year. That is real love. I don't need a holiday to inspire me to tell my true love that I love him with all of my heart and want to show him how I love him. I do that all the time anyways. Zac I love you so much sweety and I thank God everyday for you. You have been such an amazing blessing to me and I cannot imagine a man more wonderful than you. You are my best friend, my companion, my partner in crime *giggle*, my strength, my heart, my one and only love. Thank you for choosing me to love and choosing me to spend the rest of your life with. I will do my best to be the wife you want and deserve.

"LORD God, please bless our marriage and bless Zac for choosing me to be his wife. LORD you know I am very difficult, very emotional and hard headed. But LORD you also know my heart, you know my soul and mind, and you know how much I love this man. Please help me to be the wife he wants, deserves and needs. Help me to be the woman you describe in
Proverbs 31:10-31:

"Who can find a virtuous and capable wife? She is worth more than precious rubies. Her husband can trust her, and she will greatly enrich his life. She will not hinder him but help him all her life...She is energectic and strong, a hard worker. She watches for bargains; her lights burn late into the night. Her hands are busy sprinning thread, her fingers twisting fiber. She extends a helping hand to the poor and opens her arms to the needy. She has no fear of winter for her household because all of them have warm clothes. She quilts her own bedspreads. She dresses like royalty in gowns of finest cloth...She is clothed with strength and dignity and she laughs with no fear of the future. When she speaks, her words are wise, and kindness i teh rule when she gives instructions. She carefully watches all that goes on in her household and does not have to bear the consequences of laziness. Her children stand and bless her. Her husband praises her: "There are more virtuous and capable women in the world, but you surpass them all!" Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last; but a woman who fears the LORD will be greatly praised. Reward her for all she has done. Let her deeds publicly declare her praise."

LORD God please watch over us and protect us from the enemy. You know he hates marriage, even when it is under you and your perfect love. Lord I pray that our love will grow even more to be the unconditional love that you have for us, your children. Help our marriage to grow strong so that we may stand strong with our feet firmly planted on the ground during the storms that we will face! I love you Lord God and I thank you for the many blessings. Thank you again for Zac. He is such an amazing and wonderful man! I LOVE HIM LORD. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!
In Jesus' perfect name, AMEN!"

My prayer to all of you out there, may God bless you in each of your lives, bless the ones you love, and to shower you with his unconditional love. God loves you and so do I!

Finally on the last day of my medication that my doctor had to prescibe me. And let me tell you, feeling like an emotional roller coaster is no fun! I have been on a high hormone for 10 days and it sucks! One minute I would be ok, the next minute crying my eyes out, and then the next wanting to chew someone's head off, anyone within arms reach. Oh sure, I thought I was going crazy because I have never acted this way. So I seriously thought there was something wrong with me. Zac was so scared because I would call him crying my eyes out because I was so sick from this medicine. Because it was such a high dose of a hormone, I was sick to my stomach for the whole 10 days. It was so bad one night that I called my dad who is a doctor telling him to prescribe something to me to stop the sickness. It was unbearable. Thankfully, I had something that my other doctor gave me when I had the stomach flu during Christmas. I took one of those pills, dang, I was out in 15 minutes. It was great! I slept over 12 hours that night, which of course never happens. But anyways, my last one was yesterday, now I just have to wait. My doctor told me that I could have kids and all the other schmucks that were feeding me nothing but crappy opinions and stupid assumptions were wrong! I felt such an amazing amount of excitement, I think I even started crying. I have always hated those idiots that told me I couldn't have kids. That is so important to me because I want Zac to be able to have his own kids with me. I want us to have kids together. And I know he wants to be a father. He would make such a great father. And I bet anything our kids will be the spitting image of Zac. Looks, character/personality, etc. As long as they aren't like me, I think I will be happy. But I will make sure that my kids don't ever have a life like mine. And they better not be obsessed with the computer. *giggle* I think I'll go off the deep end if they do. Lol.
Wedding plans are going well, I think. My bridesmaids have ordered their dresses and shoes, which is a load off of mine. Red and I went to David's Bridal on Saturday, and I thought I was in a bad dream. There were tons of brides, with their bridesmaids, and TEENAGERS, shopping for prom. Talk about little hoochies with slutty dresses. Yuck! Anyways, we brought Munchkin with us to find some shoes, hair piece, etc. to go with her dress for the wedding since she is my flower girl. She looks so adorable! We found the exact dress she is going to wear and put it on her. I found the cutest bow for her hair and little ballet slippers, which are named after here too. *giggle* We put all of that stuff on her, and she was so precious! Every bride and bridesmaid that was there, just stopped what they were doing and looked at her while I was taking pictures. All of them said, "Oh, how adorable", "can I come to that wedding", "can she be in my wedding?" It was great. I piped up and said, "she is MY flower girl" with a smirk on my face. It was great. She really will be adorable. I'm gonna have a kissing ball for her to carry down the aisle instead of spreading rose petals or carrying a bouquet. Red was blushing and you could really tell she was so happy that she was the mother of Munchkin. I can't wait.

Days until my Wedding: 88 (YEEHAW)
*now wouldn't it be sick if I actually had it down to hours, minutes and seconds too?*